DHAKA: With two bankruptcies and husbands under her ever-expanding ever-shrinking money belt, Kerry Katona finally has some good news she is pregnant again!
Kerry, 33, and ex-rugby player George Kay, 33, got engaged in April, when George popped the question at the top of Blackpool Tower, and now Kerry is three months pregnant. The couple, who went to school together, celebrated their one-year anniversary this week.
Speaking to The Guardian Weekend, about her past bankruptcy, Kerry admitted her financial difficulties playing out in the press doesn`t help her image.
"It`s just a vicious circle and now, because it`s going to become public, I can just see what`s gonna happen. People are gonna be saying, `She`s f**ked up again," she said.
"But I`ve not f**ked up. I`ve done everything I can possibly do. But it`s almost like it`s the norm to do a sh***y story on Kerry Katona."
She continues: "Sometimes I think I attract drama." No kidding.
Kerry Katona and Mark Croft Kerry Katona and Mark Croft
The one-time-lap-dancer-turned-topless-model-turned-girl-bander says of ex husband Mark Croft: "I felt such a failure. I felt humiliated cos Brian had just finked off to Australia with some bird.
"And then, when Mark proposed, I was like, `Right, this`ll fix the hole.` But I wasn`t even attracted to him. I wasn`t well in my head, I was on the drugs, Mark was my dealer, and everything just got really out of hand."
On starring in not-so-high-brow TV ads, she says: "But that`s why I`m doing TV ads for money, so I can put food in the cupboard!
"I`ve already paid more than £430,000 back for an £82,000 tax bill. How am I ever supposed to get out of this?
"I`ve had to take my kids out of private school. I`m not a materialistic person.
"I use my 40% discount card from New Look to buy my clothes, the kids` clothes are from f****** George at Asda and Matalan.
"And people think, `Oh, she goes on these holidays,` but I don`t pay for them.
Kerry Katona and George Kay Ahlan`s Kerry Katona and George Kay Ahlan`s
"For me to have a holiday with the kids, that`s why I have to have a pap picture. I`ve never paid for plastic surgery – the TV shows and magazines do. My money just goes straight to bills and the kids."
And how did she blow away the millions?
She admits: "Mark had so much control over me. He`d go, `Look at the state of you. No one`ll love you any more; only I`ll love you.`
"He`d be feeding me drugs, so much so that my nose would bleed. I`d be dirty, I`d be filthy, and then he`d pick me up and put me in the bath. He`d wash me, and I`d think, `He loves me.` It was out of control."
When burglars tied her up at knifepoint in 2007, she says she thinks Croft was involved after she found `a guide to burgling a house`.
She says: "And I knew he was in on it. And I was like, I was so distraught from the first marriage, and that kind of brought up all my past for me – my abandonment issues, not feeling self-worth.
"It was like a vicious circle. It was like, am I, am I, am I that? Are people that unable to love?"
Kerry and Brian in 2000 Kerry and Brian in 2000
On her ex husband Brian McFadden, she says he sees his kids at most three times a year, while Croft hasn`t seen his for more than 18 months.
"I don`t get a penny from the sperm donors," she says, but is stopped short from her publicist after being reminded that one of the reasons Brian doesn`t is because she slags him off to the press.
Speaking about current fiancé George Kay - who was jailed for six years for blackmail and released two years ago - she says: "George is amazing.
"He makes me feel so good about myself: `Morning beautiful! You`re stunning, you`re amazing, you`re strong, go and exercise`, you know."
And now she`s putting the doom and gloom behind her, she has ambitions to become an actor and "just not to be Kerry Katona for a change because I hate Kerry Katona. I hate that, hate it."
BDST: 0120 HRS, SEP 13, 2013