DHAKA: Monica Lewinsky says she became reclusive during Hillary Rodham Clinton’s campaign for president in 2008 for fear that she would be used for political purposes and that she feels ‘gun-shy’ even now as Hillary considers another run in 2016.

Despite Lewinsky’s trepidation, she writes in a forthcoming issue of Vanity Fair that she now feels compelled to emerge from the shadows because, ‘Should I put my life on hold for another eight to 10 years?’

It is time, she writes, to stop ‘tiptoeing around my past, and other people’s futures. I am determined to have a different ending to my story. I’ve decided, finally, to stick my head above the parapet so that I can take back my narrative and give a purpose to my past.’

She continues, ‘What this will cost me, I will soon find out’.

Lewinsky, now 40, broke her years long silence about her affair with former president Bill Clinton in the article to appear in the May 8 issue of Vanity Fair.

In excerpts released by the magazine on Tuesday, which include a photograph of her wearing a white dress and lying casually on a sofa, Lewinsky sounds off about her regrets, her feelings of humiliation and the effect that the scandal has had on her career, reports The Times of India.

BDST: 1651 HRS, MAY 07, 2014